An Open Letter To The Mothers Of The Garland Shooting Attackers
- Courtney Heard

- May 4, 2015
- 3 min read
Updated: Nov 17, 2020
Hey Mamas,

Iโm sorry. Iโm sorry you lost your boys. As the mother of a boy, this is the unthinkable. My heart aches for your loss.
Iโm sorry your sons died over cartoons. Cartoons are supposed to be sources of humour and smiles and laughter. They are supposed to trigger thought, not violence. They are entertainment, commentary and artโฆ not a reason to die.
Iโm sorry that in the wake of Charlie Hebdo, the media did not stand up for free speechย and publish as manyย Muhammad cartoons as possible, making it normal.ย Iโm sure, had the media not been so gutless, andย Muhammad cartoons became frequent and normal, that the ones in Garland would not have had the impact on your sons that they did.
Iโm sorry your sonsโย education failed to produce critical thinkers and instead, likely left them feeling bullied, alone and terrified for their future, like most other kids. Iโm sorry their education failed to fill their lives with richness and awe and wonder, and instead, left them empty, looking for something to fill a void.
Iโm sorry your sons never got to experience the joy of being skeptical; of saying, โI donโt know, but I want to find out.โ
Iโm sorry indoctrination is not a criminal offence, and that more little girls and boys are being groomed as we speak to grow into adults who truly believe they are doing Godโs good work when they hurt other people. Iโm sorry more mothers like yourselves will experience what you are experiencing.
Iโm sorry a kind-hearted atheist wasnโt able to spark up a conversation with your boys long enough to cause some doubts. Iโm sorry they died before someone rattled their cages of faith.
Iโm sorry there arenโt more out, open and proud atheists out there willing to engage people like your sons in a friendlyย conversation aimed at exposing the cracks in the myth of Allah, the tall tale of Muhammad and the elaborate yarn of some blissful afterlife.
Iโm sorry I became an outspoken atheist when I was 36, rather than when I was 15. Iโm sorry I waited so long. Iโm sorry I missed 20 years of potentially changing minds, and leading people like your sonsย away from the dangers of religion.
Iโm sorry I never knew your sons. Iโm sorry I didnโt have the chance to meet them, to speak with them openly and honestly about what they believe. Iโm sorry I never had the opportunity to helpย either of them see reason.
Iโm sorry for all of these things because I bet you looked at your sons with pride. I bet you loved them with all your hearts. I bet they were good boys, smart boys, loving boys. I would guess and say the world lost two men who wanted to do the right thing, but they had the wrong ideas in their heads.
My heart goes out to you both. I pledge to you, in the wake of your losses, that I will work as hard as I possibly can to lead good people like your sons, away from the darkness of ancient myth and into the light of reason. I pledge to you that I will do this until my body wonโt let me do it anymore. I pledge this to you because no mother should experience what you are experiencing.
My heart is broken for you. Iโm sorry.
Sincerely, Courtney
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